Help

Sitting back and Drowning in grief
So many things I want to believe
Rocking back and forth all over again
Lost all my respect and all my friends

I've been drinking liquor like it's water
Praying for forgiveness from my father
Taking these pills and falling to the floor
It feels like a can't take this anymore

(Chorus)
Here I go
And now I'm at it again
Just an addict with a pen
Still you know why we crack broken hearts
So we can see where the pain starts
To help only ourselves is why I live in this hell
And now I'm dialing the phone for some help

Obviously I am going down early
Couldn't even last to age thirty
When I was young I said I will never be this way
But now look at my...I'm fading away

This last breath is coming fast
My last heartbeat happened long ago in the past
But I still walk as cold as I am
I lost the feelings and don't even give a damn

(Chorus)
Here I go
And now I'm at it again
Just an addict with a pen
Still you know why we crack broken hearts
So we can see where the pain starts
To help only ourselves is why I live in this hell
And now I'm dialing the phone for some help

(Bridge)
And I am calling out, can't you hear me now?
I'm running down the tracks
To find my way back
Only counting with one number
Terrifying me to wake from my slumber
How could I have been so blind
Have I been asleep all this time?
But now the sheets are on the floor, and I'm up against the door
Trying to pick lock and find what you're forgot

(Chorus)
And now I'm just at it again
Just an addict with a pen
Still you know why we crack broken hearts
So we can see where the pain starts
To help only ourselves is why I live in this hell
And now I'm dialing the phone for some help

Obviously I need some help